(dc) pressure

inexplicably, my blog readership is at an all-time high. this increases the pressure to say something that is actually interesting. i'm afraid, like most pressure, this pushes me towards procrastination. so, i have been listening to music for inspiration and finding it in
* bat for lashes
* zero 7
* radiohead
* mozez
* glen hansard and marketa iglóva
* herbie hancock (with johnny lang & joss stone)
* müm
* my brightest diamond
* g. love and special sauce

and now i must go find inspiration within to generate lunar powerpoint charts, music to butterfly and crystal documentaries (along with the rest of my film scoring homework, the completion of which will give me my music production certificate), a summary of my 2006 financial records for tax purposes, and an analysis of my conversations with the 20 people in my partnership book. i must also read, in the next week, "the order of things: an archaeology of the human sciences" by michel foucault. i also feel compelled to do some sort of serious reflection before i turn 38 a week from tomorrow.

can i do it all? of course not. and swimming in the overwhelm, it becomes terribly urgent to find artwork for my itunes music, shop for burritos, install new software, and update my blog. and then there is always napping - the best procrastination tool ever. i would have done this today, except that the barrista at 14U put 5 espresso shots in my latte, leaving out the 6th only because she couldn't fit it in the cup. apparently kyle said to make a large latte with 6 shots. she served it to me with an apology and the extra shot in a sample cup. i let her keep that one.

i've talked about this before, how overwhelm paralyzes me, and how i organize my life so that i'm in an almost consistent state of overwhelm. the thing is, even though i think i've stopped doing this, i'm still working off vestiges of previous overcommitments. i'm pretty sure when i finish this music production masters (this week?) and my taxes, i will be more or less caught up.

i'll let you know.

i made a huge life-changing decision last week, but i can't really write about it here. i'll just note it here and refer back to it when the time comes to implement it.