(dc) instincts

i have a very strong instinct right now to withdraw from the world. i'm sure it's a phase (probably hormonal), and with any luck it will pass without incident. for a couple days out of each month (this day is one of them) i feel lonely and unfulfilled and i cry easily.

why, just last night i cried myself to sleep after an unresolved upset. i think the solution is just to focus on the work i have to do.

but at times like this, it feels like i'm wasting my youth and my sexual vigor away - dissipating it into thin air.